Saturday, June 30, 2012

June 30

Chapter 23

The Rule of St. Benedict June 30

I've dreaded the inevitable day we would reach Chapter 23, the first of eight chapters dealing with consequences for faults.  No one wants to talk about the dark side of community life, when earnest good intentions can no longer be assumed.  We would that human evil remain an abstraction, an idea we can rail against on Facebook, but never look in the eye within our own homes.  As soon as we open ourselves to living in community, however, we open ourselves to the possibility that someone will betray the trust that makes community possible.  To betray is to make use of that which is derived from a community--resources, information, security, relationships--against the interests of that community.

These chapters are St. Benedict's 6th Century prescription for dealing with such betrayal in order to preserve the health of his communities.  I will not be concerned with the specific means of correction or punishment, as they have little to offer us in the 21st Century, but I believe there is much to be gained from listening carefully with the ear of the heart, even as we move through these eight difficult chapters.

Notice with me the nature of the offenses our Father Benedict lists here in Chapter 23.  These are attitudes that we can all find living within ourselves at one time or another.  What is so harmful about them within a Benedictine community is that they indicate an unwillingness to be moulded, to be transformed.  They are ways a human heart digs its heels in and refuses to budge.  Such a posture cannot be ignored, if Benedictine community is to remain an association of unified intentions.

Br. Chad 2012

Friday, June 29, 2012

June 29

Chapter 22

The Rule of St. Benedict June 29


A long time ago Benedictines saw fit to re-imagine this chapter and adopt cells for sleeping quarters in monasteries rather than the dormitory Benedict describes here.  The re-imagining of the Rule has a long precedent.  The process of adaptation must be careful, however, to preserve the spirit behind the specific instructions when the specifics are set aside.

In the case of the Canon Communities of St. Benedict, Benedictine life is re-imagined once again.  Here the very notion of living in a monastery is set aside, but what is preserved is the mutual support and encouragement along the path of Benedictine spiritual formation, which, I believe, is the spirit behind this chapter.

Ours is to be a community in which gentle encouragement is the posture the members assume with each other.  We each have a "bed" out of which we struggle to rise, and we each have a kind nudge to apply to a brother or sister.

Br. Chad 2012

Thursday, June 28, 2012

June 28

Chapter 21

The Rule of St. Benedict June 28

One can't spend much time exploring Benedictine spirituality before needing to face the issue of authority in the Rule.  St. Benedict is not shy about the topic, and his intentions for community hinge upon a very specific vision of how authority is to be held and exercised.

This chapter about deans is a good example of this vision.  Authority is never held for its own sake, but for the sake of the community.  And one function of Benedictine authority is to empower others to develop into the people they are created to be.  When a member of the community is created to be a leader, then those in authority must empower that person to lead, and the way that a person is empowered to lead is by being given a share in the authority of the community.  The provision in this chapter for the appointment of deans is a mechanism by which such empowerment takes place in Benedictine community.

Our Father Benedict is a wise and able abbot who understands that the well-being of a community is enhanced by the sharing of authority for the sake of all.  But he also understands that with the distribution of power comes the lust for power, and that all authority must be kept closely in check if it is to remain Christlike rather than Caesar-like.

Br. Chad 2012

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

June 27

Chapter 20

The Rule of St. Benedict June 27

I've always balked a bit at St. Benedict's analogy comparing God to a Roman noble in this chapter, but this time through the Rule I found myself relating to the relational dynamic I think he's trying to capture.  Two elements of this dynamic play out in my life every day.

First, it plays out through the sanctification of physical space for prayer.  I step out of my casual way of being and into a formal one.  Having taken religious vows and been clothed with a habit, I experience this difference in the simple act of putting on and taking off my habit for prayer.  I also enlist the aid of sacred objects such as icons, crucifixes, beads, and stones along with candles and incense to create a sense of space that is set apart from, say, my toiletries or computer.

Second, it plays out through the brevity of prayer that our Father Benedict describes.  A noble requires nothing from me.  I don't come into the presence of the Queen of England and expect that she really needs me to be there.  She may desire my presence and welcome it, but it would be a delusion of grandeur to believe that my presence fulfills some unmet requirement in the life of the monarch.  My audience with the Divine is always open, and I am always met with a gracious and joyful welcome, but this welcome is a quality within God, not a reflection of my unique favorability.  I don't need, then, to puff myself up with words or linger like a beggar hoping for alms of Divine Grace.  I can move quickly in and out of prayer that is, in Benedict's words, "short and pure," without delusions about my role or my place in the Universe.

Br. Chad 2012

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

June 26

Chapter 19

The Rule of St. Benedict June 26

In my experience, there comes a point in the practice of praying the Daily Office, after processing and deconstructing all of the ways in which the Psalms challenge our personal and cultural notions of prayer and propriety, when my mind feels restored to childlike trust in the words.  I move among the verses like I move among a forest, breathing deeply the scent of pine, climbing over rocks, drinking from a brook, resting on a log.  I am free from my need to understand the details of the ecosystem.  I don't pretend that I am a tree or let my body decompose into the topsoil in order to belong here. I am a part of the same creation.  It is made for me, and I for it.

Our Father Benedict uses the word "harmony" to describe the intended relationship between our mind and our voice when we chant the Psalms.  He could have used the word "unison" or implied a clear hierarchy between the psalmody and our mind, but he did not.  Harmony is a good fruit of a relationship between distinct entities.  We are not to pretend that we are not who we are when we pray. We are to be precisely who we are in the sight of the Godhead and all Angels, and we are to walk slowly and deliberately into the forest of verses like a child among the pines, without apology and without excuse, but with wonder and peace.

Br. Chad 2012

Monday, June 25, 2012

June 25

Nativity of St. John the Baptist (transferred)

Chapter 18 pt. 4

The Rule of St. Benedict June 25

I find it hard to improve upon the synopsis of Chapter 18 given by Sr. Joan Chittister in her commentary today.  She writes,
Benedict implies very clearly in this chapter on the order of the psalms that a full prayer life must be based on a total immersion in all the life experiences to which the psalms are a response. . . . The Benedictine is not to pick and choose at random the psalms that will be said. The Benedictine is not to pick some psalms but not others. The Benedictine is to pray the entire psalter in an orderly way, regardless of mood, irrespective of impulses, despite personal preferences. Anything other than regular recitation and total immersion in the psalms is, to Benedict's way of thinking, spiritual sloth. Ours is to be a full spiritual palate. Readings may be shortened if situations warrant but the psalms never. We are to tap into every human situation that the psalms describe and learn to respond to them with an open soul, an unfettered heart and out of the mind of God.
Amen, and amen.

Br. Chad 2012

Sunday, June 24, 2012

June 24

Chapter 18 pt. 3

The Rule of St. Benedict June 24

When working with dreams, one is often led to reflect upon what aspects of oneself are depicted in each character within the dream.  It has been posited that dreams, unencumbered by our wakeful, conscious thoughts, are an ideal venue for the unconscious mind to express itself.  This it does by projecting the thoughts and emotions it contains out into the images and stories we experience as dreams.  So, in the course of dream work, it is appropriate to unpack through reflection what might be going on in my unconscious that would express itself in this way or that through a dream.

The Psalms are similar to dreams in that they too are a venue through which the unconscious seeks to be expressed.  Just as I ask myself how the threatening creature from my dream relates to my unconscious fears, I inquire within to find where "the wicked" or "the enemy" resides among my repressed emotions and thoughts.  In this way, even the imprecatory Psalms can be a powerful tool in the process of inner transformation, bringing me from a place of needing to point the finger at evil "out there" and away from me, to a place of compassion that comes from facing the evil within.

"There, but by the grace of God, go I," can become our response to the Jerry Sanduskys of our world.

Br. Chad 2012

Saturday, June 23, 2012

June 23

Chapter 18 pt. 2

The Rule of St. Benedict June 23

Some days have the weight of death.  The phone call comes, and your world feels like it is crumbling all around you.  Nothing can be undone.  You can't get around it.  Things will not be the same.

On days like this, the same Psalms you pray every day become the voice of your new anguish, your sorrows, your painful, desperate hopes.

To you I lift up my eyes,
to you enthroned in the heavens.

Have mercy upon us, O LORD, have mercy,
for we have had more than enough of contempt.

If the LORD had not been our our side . . .
Then would the raging waters
have gone right over us.

Those who trust in the LORD are like mount Zion,
which cannot be moved, but stands fast for ever.

Those who sowed with tears
will reap with songs of joy.

Those who go out weeping, carrying the seed,
will come again with joy, shouldering their sheaves.

Unless the LORD watches over the city,
in vain the watchman keeps his vigil.

Happy are all who fear the LORD . . .
You shall eat the fruit of your labor . . .
your children like olive shoots round about your table.

Br. Chad 2012

Friday, June 22, 2012

June 22

Chapter 18 pt. 1

The Rule of St. Benedict June 22

This chapter lays out an order of Psalms that I actually keep, in part, when I pray my midday office on Sunday and Monday.  St. Benedict instructs that Psalm 119 is to be distributed between the "little hours" on the first two days of the week, and so I encounter several sections of Psalm 119 each week.

Growing up, I remember a feeling of repulsion arising whenever I saw this huge 176 verse Psalm lying menacingly in the middle of the Bible.  Who would ever want to sit down and read about laws and decrees and commandments ad infinitum?  It wasn't until I experienced Psalm 119 in the context of liturgy and spiritual practice that I opened to it and it to me.

Some speculate that this psalm, based on the Hebrew alphabet, is a mnemonic tool intended for children.  It is not nuanced, not subtle, and I find great help in its overt, simple assertion over and over that the speaker loves and obeys God's commands.  My ego, at a given time, might balk by any number of concepts found in Psalm 119, but the deepest longings of my true self are affirmed and encouraged by its clear intention.

I do desire to have all my desires and my whole will caught up in God's way of being.  I have seen the futility of life lived according to other ways--success, money, comfort, reputation--and so I chant boldly the words,


Make me go in the path of your commandments, 
for that is my desire.

Incline my heart to your decrees
and not to unjust gain.

Turn my eyes from watching what is worthless;
give me life in your ways. 

Br. Chad 2012

Thursday, June 21, 2012

June 21

Chapter 17

The Rule of St. Benedict June 21

What makes a practice a practice, whether it be athletic, artistic, intellectual, or spiritual, is the repetition of actions with the intent to form an ability or capacity within a individual or community.  A habit also involves repetition but is distinct from a practice inasmuch as it lacks intention around the formation it affects.

This is not to say that practices are good and habits are bad.  Many practices become habits over time and are able to maintain their formational trajectory along the lines of their original intention.  The easier the ability to be formed, the more quickly a practice becomes a habit.  Think of driving a car.  I haven't practiced driving since I was 15 (or for a few hours after completing my last defensive driving class).  Now I just drive, having had the ability to do so adequately formed in me long ago.  The more difficult an ability or capacity to be formed, the longer a practice must remain a practice that maintains the clear intention of its undertaking.  Professional athletes must practice for as long as they desire to remain competitive.  Once the intention is lost and habit takes over, an athlete competing at the highest level loses the edge needed to remain on that level.

The spiritual formation of a human being on a Benedictine path requires lifelong practice.  Our Father Benedict desires to form in us the ability to live in God's tent (RB, Prologue), which is really the capacity to bear God into the world (RB, Prologue).  This is no easy skill set that can be learned by rote and converted into habit.  It requires the daily intention of careful practice.

Our prayers can become habitual and memorized over time.  There is nothing wrong with this in the least.  It is not the ability to pray fluently in one way or another that our prayers are intended to form in us.  We learn to pray so that our prayers become a component part of our Benedictine practice with its grand transformative intention.  To consider the prayers themselves to be the intention is a source of much that has plagued the Church since the beginning.

Br. Chad 2012

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

June 20

Chapter 16

The Rule of St. Benedict June 20

This chapter in the Rule can help to illustrate my earlier point that our Father Benedict does not intend for us to mirror the sentiments and ideas we encounter in each Psalm every time we pray.  In fact, if we think practically about what it would look like to order our days in such a way that we stop and pray seven times, it's easier to perceive that the Psalms function, as Sr. Joan writes, "to wrench [our] minds from the mundane to the mystical, away from concentration on life's petty particulars to attention on its transcendent meaning."  A monk stops and prays regardless of what he "feels" like when the bell rings.

One way the Psalms help to do this wrenching, this reorienting, is by confronting our minds with a different reality than the one we may be experiencing.  For example, my practice includes a midday office that I pray sometime between noon and 3pm.  I have patterned this office after the Sunday and holiday schedule at St. Gregory's Abbey, where the monastic hours of Sext and None are prayed back to back.  Most often this entails praying six Psalms, 123-128, which emphasize one's dependence on God's help and the blessings of domestic life.  Sometimes, when my four year-old has spent the morning in all-out war against my paternal authority and his brothers' petty kingdoms, and I am trying to both work and not lose my patience (failing miserably at both), it does not ring true to chant "children are a heritage from the LORD, and the fruit of the womb is a gift," but these words can help to open my mind to the "transcendent meaning" of the "petty particulars" that populate my life.

Usually there is not such a close correlation between text and circumstance when praying the Psalms, but the consistent value of a practice that engages the Psalms throughout the day is the way that they apply brakes to my personal freight train of thoughts and emotions before it runs away into the sunset.

Br. Chad 2012

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

June 19

Chapter 15

The Rule of St. Benedict June 19

Another outward aspect of the role the Psalms play in spiritual formation is a two-edged sword, quite honestly.  This aspect has sparked not a little tension in my parish community as I have, over the last several years, moved the chanting of the Psalms to a more prominent place in our liturgy.  The aspect to which I refer is the role of the Psalms in shaping our language, especially our language about God.

On the one edge, wonderful, ancient expressions of praise and joy, such as "Alleluia!" make their way into our vocabulary via the Psalms.  I'm grateful that our Father Benedict sees fit to keep the Alleluias rolling through the year (minus Lent, of course).  We also receive beautiful words like hesed, which is translated as "loving-kindness" or "steadfast love" from exposure to the Psalms, words that attest to God's grace and mercy and faithfulness towards humankind and all Creation.  Some Psalms bring us among high mountains and great forests and the wide oceans and birds and deer and sea creatures, opening our prayer vocabulary to the wonders of Nature.

On the other edge, some Psalms take turns down the back alleys of the ancient world and seem to acquire the dialect of hatred, vengeance, and bravado that grows among oppression and suffering.  This is not a dialect I desire to acquire or that I desire my children to pick up as a way of speaking to or about God and neighbor.  I seek to cultivate gentleness and patience in our household, not animosity and anger.  This is a real tension and a point of legitimate concern for any Christian community.

I desire to name here and acknowledge the two sharp edges on either side of this aspect of the Psalms' role in formation.  This is a tension that cannot be easily resolved, and I do not intend to try to do so here.  Holding such tensions in community is yet another formative aspect of Benedictine spirituality.

Br. Chad 2012

Monday, June 18, 2012

June 18

Chapter 14


Another aspect of the "outside" connection that the Psalms provide is the fact that generation upon generation, going back long before Jesus, has sung the Psalms in its own time and language as a part of its daily prayers.  The Psalms are a very tangible connection to the Communion of Saints among whom we walk the Christian path.

I feel supported and comforted to know that my heroes of the faith, including my patron Saints Chad of Mercia and Joseph, husband of St. Mary, took these words daily upon their own lips in prayer to God.  In this way, the Psalms contribute to my conception of catholicity.  It is as though I stand in an ancient river flowing slowly, steadily, forcefully, to meet me, the water having touched the hands and feet of my sisters and brothers who have gone before and continuing on its course far beyond me.

Br. Chad 2012

Sunday, June 17, 2012

The Parable Parable

Sermon preached on 17 June 2012 at St. Augustine's Episcopal Parish.



The Gospel of St. Mark chapter four is amazing to me.  Here sits a beautiful little treatise on parables in the form of a story that is written as a kind of parable itself: rich with symbols and veiled meaning.  This meta-parable in Mark 4 functions much like any piece of great literature, portraying far more than a particular story set in one place and one time.  It opens a window through which we are able to view an aspect the universal human condition, that which is true in all places and all times.

The meta-parable opens with the words,

Again he began to teach beside the sea.  Such a very large crowd gathered around him that he got into a boat on the sea and sat there, while the whole crowd was beside the sea on the land.

“The sea” is a prominent character in this parable.  Whenever the character of the sea makes an appearance in ancient literature, it is of great mythic importance.  And in the Jewish tradition, the sea plays a central role in the process by which God creates and transforms the world.  In modern psychological terms, the sea can be understood to symbolize the unconscious, that place in our mind reserved for emotions, urges, and thoughts of which we are not consciously aware.  The unconscious is commonly represented by the image of an iceberg with 90% of its mass submerged and out of sight.

St. Mark puts Jesus out in a boat floating atop the great mythic sea talking to the crowd that remains standing on the land.  In our meta-parable, Jesus teaches from the seat of the unconscious, from where no one is able to possess his words with the conscious mind alone.  In St. Luke’s quite different account of this story the additional detail is given that the people were “pressing in on him to hear the word of God.”  The crowd wants to have what Jesus has for their own, and they want to possess it just like they possess everything else in their lives: as a component part of their conscious awareness, of the way that they understand the world.  But the word of God that Jesus speaks will not be possessed that way.  Jesus teaches from a boat floating out on the sea.

Our meta-parable continues with what Jesus has to say to the crowd from his seat out in the unconscious.  Mark 4, verse 2 says, “He began to teach them many things in parables . . .” Jesus chooses to address his landlubbing audience using the very literary form we’ve been discussing, the parable.  That’s why I’ve titled this sermon, “The Parable Parable.”  So what exactly is a parable?  We’ve already established that parables are rich in symbolic content, and that they don’t merely tell a story set in one place and one time, but many of us have misunderstandings about what parables are and how they work.  One such misunderstanding is that parables are riddles that are to be solved by thinking really hard about them.  They are not.  Another is that parables are fables used to teach moral lessons to children in Sunday school.  They aren’t that either.

A parable is a form of teaching that uses everyday objects to open up a dialog between our unconscious and the Holy Spirit.  In the course of that dialog, the Spirit uses things that are visible to our eyes and audible to our ears to illumine our inner vision and speak to the ear of our heart.  To try to understand a parable without entering into a dialog with Spirit, is to “look, but not perceive,” to “listen, but not understand,” as Jesus says in verse twelve of Mark 4. 

How, then, do we enter into the dialog?  How do we allow our unconscious to be engaged by the Holy Spirit as we listen to the parables Jesus speaks to us from the boat?  Well, if we return to our meta-parable in Mark 4, the answer comes at the end of the chapter, which is actually in next week’s Gospel reading.  But, since I don’t preach next week, I’ll go ahead and give it to you ahead of schedule.  We enter into dialog with the Holy Spirit by stepping off of the land and into a boat.  Listen to verses 35 and 36:

On that day, when evening had come, he said to [his disciples], “Let us go across to the other side. And leaving the crowd behind, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was (already in the boat).  Other boats were with him.

Jesus says, “Let’s travel together across the sea; let’s make our way together deep into the unconscious.”  So the disciples join Jesus in the boat from which he was teaching, and notice the last words of verse 36, “Other boats were with him.”  Other people had already left the land and joined him in their own boats.  We enter into dialog with the Holy Spirit about the teachings of Jesus by getting into our own boat and leaving the crowd behind.

I can’t tell you what your boat looks like and how you’re supposed to get into it.  The conversation is between your unconscious and the Holy Spirit herself.  I would, however, like to share what it looks like for me, as a Benedictine, to step foot off the shore and into my boat.  Perhaps you can hear from my experience something that will help you leave the land in your own way.

The Benedictine tradition into which I have been called has a really old boat that I’ve climbed into almost every day for more than two years.  This boat has a fancy Latin name.  It’s called, lectio divina, which means divine or sacred reading.  The practice of lectio involves slow, meditative reading of Holy Scripture.  And, as it’s been taught to me, I move in a linear fashion through books of the Bible, two, three, six verses each day.  I read these short passages out loud and very slowly four times.  After quieting my mind, the first time I read with my feet firmly on the land.  I observe the words and events, let my thoughts arise, and let them go.  I then pause and quiet my mind again.  The second time I read the passage with my feet in the shallow water.  I listen for a word or phrase or idea that sticks out above the others.  I hold it for a moment then quiet my mind again.  On the third reading, I climb aboard the boat.  I ask Jesus, my Master, my Teacher, to show me what he has for me to see and hear in this passage, and I ask the Holy Spirit to kindle her flame and enlighten my heart.  I read and then write a brief sentence or two in my journal about what I have been shown.  At this point I am far from the shore and floating among the deep water.  After pausing again, I ask what, in the deepest parts of my own being, in my unconscious, is in need of divine attention and correction.  I sit and wait until a word rises within me.  When it is given for me to carry, I write it in my journal.   I return to this word several times in the course of each day.

This is what it looks like for me to engage in dialog with Spirit about the word of God that Jesus speaks from the boat floating on the sea.  It is my hope that you will find your way into your own boat, and that you will brave the threatening waters that keep the crowd stuck on the land.  Know that as you push off, Jesus will be with you as your guide and teacher.

Amen.

June 17

Chapter 13 pt. 2

The Rule of St. Benedict June 17

The Psalms are able to connect me to a larger world than my personal experience and conscious awareness by giving voice to the human condition as it is manifest both far outside of me and deep within me.

Outside

I do not very often go through my day feeling full of righteous indignation against my enemies, but I am certain that many people in the world do.  When I take up words of self-justified condemnation against "the wicked," then, I am offering this very real human event to God as prayer on behalf of all who harbor such sentiments in their hearts.  I participate in an aspect of the monastic vocation as it has been lived out in the East and West for millennia, that of standing before the Presence on behalf of the whole human family, the good and the bad, and unloading its cosmic baggage.

Inside


On the other hand, since, in fact, I do not consciously experience feelings such as overt hatred of enemies on a regular basis, the Psalms provide a means by which I am able to unload whatever unconscious, repressed feelings have built up within me.  They help to locate the hidden pride and envy and anger within me in order to uproot them from my soul so that they do not grow and bear fruit.  In this capacity, the Psalms give voice to the very personal story we each must learn as a part of our inner transformation.

Br. Chad 2012

Saturday, June 16, 2012

June 16

Chapter 13 pt. 1

The Rule of St. Benedict June 16

I have one technical point I would like to address about the Psalm number references that appear in the Rule.  They are from the Latin Vulgate, which was translated from the Greek Septuagint, and are usually one number less than the numbering of the Psalms as they appear in prayer books and Bibles based on the Hebrew manuscripts.  Further details about the numbering differences can be found here. I will use the Hebrew numbering in my references to the Psalms.

No matter what arrangement of the Psalms one uses in praying the Daily Office, it becomes clear rather quickly that one cannot expect to mirror every sentiment or idea expressed in each Psalm with the present state of one's emotions and beliefs.  Attempting to do so is a recipe for cognitive and emotional dysfunction.  Our Father Benedict is not urging us, like some 6th Century praise and worship leader, to "Sing it like you mean it!" when he arranges Psalm 67 right next to Psalm 51 each morning.

This is not to say that both Psalm 67 and Psalm 51 cannot speak to us each and every morning.  But the way in which they communicate is not necessarily by means of our personal sentiments and beliefs.  When I take the Psalms upon my lips, it is not St. Benedict's intention that I "mean" every word in the way our culture conceives of earnest feelings and beliefs.  The Psalms are intended to connect all of me, body, soul, and spirit, to a world that is much larger than my personal experience and conscious awareness.  I see this connection taking place in two distinct ways that I will touch upon tomorrow.

Br. Chad 2012

Friday, June 15, 2012

June 15

Chapter 12

The Rule of St. Benedict June 15

Over the next several days, I will offer some thoughts about the Psalms as they function in the Christian contemplative tradition, of which Benedictine spirituality is a part.  My comments will not be closely tied to the content of the Rule for these days, although I may touch on this or that from the daily reading.

The Psalms, in the Benedictine tradition, take up the lion's share of the floor time in the Daily Office.  If we understand daily prayer to be a program for the transformation of consciousness, chanting the psalms is the technology and the curriculum through which that program is implemented.  In this context, the Psalms provide the words with which one raises the full array of the human experience to God in prayer.  And by doing so in the form of chanting, the Benedictine seeks to align body, soul, and spirit in worship before the One.

Our Father Benedict goes to great lengths to assign particular Psalms to various offices in order to guide the monks through the Psalter each week.  This makes a lot of sense given that the Psalms are anything but straight forward songs of praise.  Without a wise and careful guide, in fact, they can pose a danger to the spiritual development of a human being.  But with guidance the Psalms can help us navigate the diverse landscape of the human condition in which we find ourselves.

Br. Chad 2012

Thursday, June 14, 2012

June 14

Chapter 11

The Rule of St. Benedict June 14

Sunday is always the greatest and highest of feasts.  Sr. Joan describes it as "the weekly celebration of creation and resurrection, . . . always a reminder of new life, always special, always meant to take us back to the Beginning and the End, the Alpha and the Omega, the Center of life."

Our Father Benedict seeks to emblazon this centerpiece of the Christian life with a special liturgy intended to enact what Sr. Joan describes.  A Benedictine finds peace and joy in returning each week to the rhythm and tradition of the ages, to the pomp and solemnity that fixes her identity among the heavenly hosts, in the Great Hall of the Eternal Now.

There is no denial here that God is to be sought in the mundane details of everyday life.  An ordered religious life moves from hour to hour in pursuit of divine imminence.  Yet the transcendent also beckons the soul to shake off the holy dust of the earth from time to time and take flight.

Br. Chad 2012

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

June 13

Chapter 10

The Rule of St. Benedict June 13

It is comforting to know that one's well-being is important to someone else.  For all the aspects of the Rule that might sound harsh to 21st Century ears, the seemingly mundane instructions in Chapter 10 are born from gentleness and kindness.  When the nights grow short during the summer, our Father Benedict chooses to shorten the night prayers rather than the community's sleeping time.

It takes wise and mature leadership to know when to hold back on the reigns and when to push forward.  We too often witness leaders in our achievement-oriented society driving after an ideal without appropriate concern for the well-being of those they lead.  I hear from this little chapter that St. Benedict's leadership can be trusted to have my best interest at heart.

Br. Chad 2012

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

June 12

Chapter 9

The Rule of St. Benedict June 12

Benedictine prayer presents a steep learning curve for the beginner.  It is mind-boggling to attempt to make sense of all the instructions and details our Father Benedict lays out in a passage like Chapter 9.  One crucial aspect of any beginner's experience on a Benedictine path, however, is that one is never tasked to learn it alone.  Each novice is supported by a community that is steeped in the prayers and guided by a novice master who provides skillful instruction.

Learning to pray is much like learning a new language, and it is undeniable that the best way to learn a language is through an immersion experience among native speakers.  And just as fluency in a new language opens up access to a dimension of the Human Experience known only by those who think in terms of the structural, cultural, and historical framework provided by that language, fluency in Benedictine prayer avails the soul to the riches of St. Benedict's transformative path.

True prayer is never easy, but it is always worth the effort.  Thanks be to God for the help of the Spirit and for the guidance of our sisters and brothers whose voices we are given to imitate.

Br. Chad 2012

Monday, June 11, 2012

June 11

Chapter 8

The Rule of St. Benedict June 11

Chapter 8 begins thirteen straight chapters of instruction regarding prayer in the monastery.  For the purposes of my reflections here, I will not be concerned with the particulars of times for prayer and the number and order of the Psalms to be used as our Father Benedict lays them out in these chapters.  The Community of St. Mary of the Annunciation is in the process of ordering and implementing our own daily prayer schedule that is Benedictine in nature, but adapted for the non-cloistered life of canons.  My reflections will touch on the spiritual and practical underpinnings of St. Benedict's instructions about prayer with the hope of providing support for the practice of our community and of others on similar paths.

Sr. Joan offers that the chapters on prayer follow our Father Benedict's treatise on humility.  She writes,
Prayer is, then, the natural response of people who know their place in the universe.  It is not designed to be a psychological comfort zone though surely comfort it must. . . . [I]t is an act of community and an act of awareness. 
That said, chapter 8 begins by hitting a major artery that feeds any spiritual practice, personal or communal: nighttime sleep.  What we do with the time surrounding our sleep can show us a lot about our priorities.  Think of what will get you out of bed in the middle of the night--a crying child, a red-eye flight, "the necessities of nature."  We orient our lives according to such things.  To be Benedictine is to orient one's life according to prayer.

Br. Chad 2012


Sunday, June 10, 2012

June 10

Chapter 7 pt. 16

The Rule of St. Benedict June 10

In this last reading from Chapter 7, our Father Benedict gives both the twelfth and final step of humility, which has to do with physical demeanor, and the conclusion to what Sr. Joan calls, "a strangely wonderful and intriguingly distressing treatise on the process of the spiritual life."  I want to quote at length from Joseph Goldstein, a Buddhist teacher who contributed to Benedict's Dharma: Buddhists Reflect on the Rule of Saint Benedict as a conclusion to my own reflections on Chapter 7.
Sometimes humility itself can become a stance of the ego, or perhaps be confused with feelings of unworthiness.  Wei Wu Wei captures the essence of this virtue when he writes, 'Humility is the absence of anyone to be proud.' True humility comes most fully with the wisdom of selflessness, rather than being some one who is humble--for even a humble one can be self-centered.
One of the greatest stumbling blocks to the experience of humility is the strong attachment we can have to views and opinions, of both worldly and spiritual matters.  The particular spiritual practices and studies we have undertaken inevitably condition us.  It is easy to become attached to our point of view and miss the even greater wisdom that comes from silence of mind. 
Br. Chad 2012

Saturday, June 9, 2012

June 9

Chapter 7 pt. 15

The Rule of St. Benedict June 9

The ninth and tenth steps of humility lay out a disposition to silence and calm, but whatever one's disposition, there will come a time to speak.  Our Father Benedict describes in the eleventh step the character of humble speaking.

In the course of my life, I have often found myself in the midst of a monologue in which I feel compelled to express my thoughts and make convincing points.  As I keep talking and talking, my voice becomes louder and my words begin to spin me around until I am left holding nothing more than a mess of self-centered pettiness.  At the end of such monologues I feel alienated from myself and from those who listen.

By way of contrast, I have been a part of several discernment committees over the years at St. Augustine's Episcopal Parish.  When functioning as intended, discernment committees are able to hold weighty questions gently with humility and sincerity.  Words spoken in the course of a meeting arise from silence at the prompting of the Spirit for the sake of the hearers.  At the end of such meetings I feel profoundly connected to myself and to the others in the group.

Humble speaking creates safe space for all who hear.

Br. Chad 2012

Friday, June 8, 2012

June 8

Chapter 7 pt. 14


This instruction about laughter is a difficult one to take seriously.  Since when is laughter an enemy of the soul?  But the tenth degree of humility is not simply "to not laugh."  It is to "be not ready or quick to laugh."  I have the image of a spring-loaded toy: compressed and waiting for the button to be pushed that releases a burst of energy.  The tenth degree seems to follow from the ninth in that the loaded spring of ready and quick laughter can be another way we impose ourselves upon silence and compromise our hospitality to Spirit.

It is helpful for me to take a step back and think of this instruction as a part of the series of steps in Chapter 7.  The intention of the steps, the rungs, is to cultivate a posture of humility in the soul.  Humility is of central importance to our Father Benedict because it is the condition of the human soul through which God can speak and act in the world.  Each rung on the ladder of humility, it seems to me, dismantles some egoic barrier to this flow of Divine action into and through our lives.  

Furthermore, laughter is often put to uses other than a pure expression of delight.  Habitual laughter can serve to guard our conversations from ever going beyond the polite.  Such laughter can belittle or trivialize, which enables us to avoid honest, vulnerable engagement with a person.  And without honesty and vulnerability there is no opening to Spirit.

Br. Chad 2012


Thursday, June 7, 2012

June 7

Chapter 7 pt. 13

The Rule of St. Benedict June 7

I remember, near the beginning of my daily spiritual practice, during my first attempt to sit in silence for 10 minutes before Morning Prayer, that the truth of this ninth step of humility showed itself to me.  From my journal on 19 August, 2009:
 . . . several interactions from the day before came to mind, and I saw them for what they were.  I recognized that when I was silent by choice, I had no regrets about the interaction.  When I spoke, however, I was very likely to have spoken from the wrong place in myself.
Minutes later, in the course of Morning Prayer, the words of St. Paul from Ephesians 4, the passage assigned for that day, jumped from the page:
Let no evil talk come out of your mouth, but only what is useful for building up, as there is need, so that your words may give grace to those who hear.
Words have power, whether we recognize it or not, and our Father Benedict wants to wean us from our addiction to the power we wield with our tongues.  Until I don't NEED to speak, to express my view, to trumpet my thoughts to the world, I am unable to cultivate the inner listening in the moment that has the potential to transform my mouth into a vessel for the grace of Christ.

Br. Chad 2012
 

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

June 6

Chapter 7 pt. 12

The Rule of St. Benedict June 6

The eighth step of humility is to release one's grip on the great big steering wheel by which a human being is directed.  Plainly and simply, it is to relinquish one's say in the hows of one's life.  But why would someone do such a thing?  What could possibly motivate me to limit my personal freedom to the extent that I "do nothing except what is commended by the common Rule . . . and the example of the elders"?

The answer that I have to offer from my life mirrors much of Sr. Joan's commentary for today.  I was motivated to submit myself in obedience to a catholic and Benedictine path because I caught a glimpse of the limits of my own lights and witnessed others being guided along this path into the "darkness" beyond what I knew.  What I perceived in these others is a holiness and a wisdom that my soul longs to embody, but that I had no clue how to pursue.  And so I took one step, then another, and another in their footprints over the course of years.  The path became gradually clearer, my pace quickened, and I have been led into a beautiful world I would never have discovered had I remained convinced that what I could see and understand is all that holds value for me.

Br. Chad 2012

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

June 5

Chapter 7 pt. 11

The Rule of St. Benedict June 5

Sister Joan Chittister, OSB, in her commentary on today's reading, beautifully articulates the transformative value of considering oneself "lower and of less account than anyone else."  She writes,
Benedict wants us to realize that accepting our essential smallness and embracing it frees us from the need to lie, even to ourselves, about our frailties.  More than that, it liberates us to respect, revere, and deal gently with others who have been unfortunate enough to have their own smallnessess come obscenely to light.
I recently witnessed what Sr. Joan describes play out in an everyday exchange between two people.  I heard one person speak words of scorn and degradation about a stranger he witnessed in line at a fast food restaurant order something healthy, citing being on a diet, along with a second item that was pure junk.  I recognized his resentment, having partaken in such judgments of strangers many times in my own thoughts.  A second person, however, responded to him with a story about how she used to buy health food and junk food at different stores to avoid having someone pass judgment on her, and that we all have our own "denial dance" that we do in one area or another.

The second person in this exchange embodied the profound liberating power of our Father Benedict's seventh step of humility.  When we don't have anything to prove or defend because we acknowledge and own our "essential smallness", we not only become free from the judgment of others, but we are able to "deal gently" with those we witness in the midst of their own "denial dance".

Br. Chad 2012
 

Monday, June 4, 2012

June 4

Chapter 7 pt. 10


Contentment is a serious threat to the American way of life.  Our economy is predicated upon the discontentment that lives inside the human being.  If one is truly "content with the poorest and worst of everything", as our Father Benedict describes, no advertising campaign will be able to create the desires that drive consumption.

But the knife cuts more deeply than society on a grand scale.  St. Benedict aims to dethrone self-interested desire within the human psyche so that the individual is empowered to respond to her circumstances from the impulse of divine love rather than from her own perceived needs.  The extent to which one must secure pleasure for oneself through possessions or status is the extent to which one is unable to be a channel through which Christ is manifest in the world.

Br. Chad 2012

Sunday, June 3, 2012

June 3

Trinity Sunday

Chapter 7 pt. 9

The Rule of St. Benedict June 3

One expectation put upon a Benedictine canon is that she make "a regular practice of confession to [her] priest."  This is one way that a non-cloistered religious is able to forge a spiritual bond with a local parish and thus live out this vocation within a sacramental community.  We must be clear as we engage in such practices, however, that when we reveal all "of the evil thoughts that enter [our] heart or the sins committed in secret" to our priest, we do so to God.  The priest, in this context, is a sort of icon through which we see and experience the Grace and forgiveness of God for our lives.

As an unordained Prior, I am willing to bear with my sisters and brothers the burdens of their hearts, and I will speak words of peace, but my role is not yet a sacramental one.  It is important, then, that we as canons give ourselves over to the Holy Mystery experienced in the sacrament of confession to one's priest, not because we are unforgiven if we don't, but because we seek to cultivate within ourselves the humility our Father Benedict describes.

Br. Chad 2012

Saturday, June 2, 2012

June 2

Chapter 7 pt. 8

The Rule of St. Benedict June 2

The fourth degree of humility is that he hold fast to patience with a silent mind when in this obedience he meets with difficulties and contradictions and even any kind of injustice, enduring all without growing weary or running away.
I find this translation very helpful in understanding this "degree"/step/rung of humility.  I struggle daily to "hold fast to patience with a silent mind" in the face of my circumstances, especially when my children passionately experience their own negative emotions and barrage my senses with their expressions of them.  It feels like they have been taught precisely how to get my goat by some wizened Zen master (with a mischievous twinkle in his eye).

One reason my grip on patience often slips is because I am actually holding more tightly to my expectations about how the world should appear than I am to my connection to Christ within, a connection maintained through a "silent mind" from which the quality of patience ensues.  When I add "Br. Chad being patient" to my list of expectations about how the world ought to proceed, I am setting myself up to be disappointed.  But when, through persistent spiritual practice, I am empowered to carry a silent mind with me and enabled, by the gift of Grace, to perceive the Christ Reality in the midst of my other sense perceptions, patience holds fast to me.  I am no longer at the mercy of my desires and expectations when I encounter circumstances hostile to them.

Br. Chad 2012

Friday, June 1, 2012

June 1

Chapter 7 pt. 7

The Rule of St. Benedict June 1

This third step, or rung, of humility seems especially hard to climb for us Westerners.  Individualism reigns supreme around here.  If not in the outer realm of Ayn Rand-inspired political positions, it reigns inwardly through our enthroned egos, our unfeigned devotion to "our own truth". Sr. Joan Chittister, OSB writes,
Benedict argues that the third rung on the ladder of humility is the ability to submit ourselves to the wisdom of another. We are not the last word, the final answer, the clearest insight into anything. We have one word among many to contribute to the mosaic of life, one answer of many answers, one insight out of multiple perspectives. Humility lies in learning to listen to the words, directions and insights of the one who is a voice of Christ for me now.
Ironically, our Father Benedict's intention is for each human being to discover and live according to his true Self, created as a unique expression of God's own life.  But if the only voice we heed is our own, we find ourselves unable to embark on the inner journey, unable to climb the mystical ladder that will, through perseverance, lead us there.

Br. Chad 2012